living the life of a mystic and priest is not what you think. even fewer people than you might expect actually have any respect for you. far more than you might imagine loathe and/or are afraid of you. and god has less and less regard for your 'happiness'. It reminds me of a slogan a friend of mine forwarded to me: "Jesus loves you . . . . . Thor wants you to grow the fuck up." I think Jesus gets more and more like "Thor" every day, at least for me.

so, back to work. by the way "becoming a sevant" is not an ANALOGY. When Jesus says that, he means it. And it feels just like that, too. Exhausting, frustrating, dirty, thankless.